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Well, It looks like I’m ready to blog again. Not that I was not ‘ready’ before. The past month or two have been pretty busy though. Besides working out and not getting anywhere I’ve revised my workout plan and with the help of my boyfriend I now wake up at 6:15am to get some reps in. But I absolutely loathe it. One morning I practically screamed at him. *sad face* He didn’t deserve it, but I like my morning sleep! So much that the snooze button gets pushed an average of 7 times each day.

I’ve also just completed my first semester back in school. OH school…and life choices.

On the football note…Nate & his team started their 2-a-days today. Looks like his summer is pretty much over, besides the weekends, we still have a few good ones left before fall. This past weekend we joined some friends on their newly purchased pontoon boat at Branched Oak Lake. It turned into a fantastic day and I was happy we could bring Tatum. He had so much fun first off, driving the boat, and then I was definitely surprised at how many times he jumped into the water, or got tossed into the air. We were out there for a good 6 hours which included dinner, karaoke and almost a brawl with some crazed boaters that wanted a problem with Nate. (HOW crazy was that?) When we finally left the Lake around 8, Tatum was passed out in 3 minutes. We had a good lightening show on the way home, and Nate talked the WHOLE way home even though we were both super tired. What is his motto? If your are not driving…you should be sleeping?! Yup. I think quite the opposite.

Nick let Tatum drive the boat. Probably the best part of his day…besides all the swimming, jumping, singing, juice, and intertube wars we had. 🙂

Anyways..into the end of summer we go. I just hope the leaves don’t fall off the trees all at the same time.


Found a ‘doll’house for my BOY

Well…I found a dollhouse for Tatum. For some reason he asked for a dollhouse awhile ago around Christmas time. And I was all for it. . I thought to myself,  maybe he can find inspiration to become a great architect someday. My guy friends were however skeptical about how a little boy could want a dollhouse. Getting him one was out of the question especially since the dollhouses we see out there are made with white trim and pink carpet. I opted for a three level garage instead. Or at least that’s what ‘santa’ did. He loves it by the way with his wooden cars and a pump for gas, a helipad, and an elevator.

But I knew there had to be something architecturally sound and modern made somewhere out there. This ‘doll’ house is from Brinca Dada and reminds of something Frank Loyd Wright-ish. I would LOVE this for Tatum or any of my future children, but at a hefty $329+ (+ for furniture and people of course) it might be something I’ll be saving for instead, for a bit anyways. I might also mention…the lights are powered by solar power. Are you kidding me? There’s many features to these houses so check out Brinca Dada’s website at

Heavy Rain

I should not play video games before bed…or go to bed with the computer. First of all, the last thing my waking eyes see before bed should not be shaking hands covered in blood , a dark tunnel filled with broken glass that I have to crawl through and an unlocked motel room with a killer on the loose. Not good sleeping material especially for me, with dreams already filled with violence, breaking & entering and kicking ass.  (In my dreams I live a secret life of a spy/assassin heroin always defending good against evil and barely escaping with her life. Whether it be against robbers, gangsters, an ex boyfriend, or quite recently…zombies, it makes for an interesting sleep at least.)

Well, I recently purchased a new video game for the PS3.  With my boyfriend having Call of Duty to fall into after he gets home, and NCAA Football to indulge in with his friend, Nick, who I believe is completely obsessed with “advancing…”, I was feeling pushed out. I do find it hard to believe how it’s fun to “recruit” for 25 minutes a night, play  a 20 minute football game EVERY night, and then recruit some more for a ‘dynasty’? And what is this advancing stuff. I’ve picked up Nate’s phone more than a couple times because Michael Jackson won’t stop singing, “Beat It” and it’s Nick with a text saying, “Advancing” or “Advanced Yet?” or “You gonna advance f*cker?”

I’m not a boy though, and although I love sports and playing them, I just don’t think I’ll ever be able to GAME them.

I can however game something I probably and hopefully (cross my fingers) will never do in real life. Like chasing a serial killer around town with clues that he left me to save my son.It’s like a whole episode of Criminal Minds! Which may be the only cop show I care to watch. Anyway it’s called “Heavy Rain”. I really wanted something Nate and I could play together like “Uncharted” but there is nothing out like it right now so said the girl at Game Stop. We’ll just have to wait till Uncharted 3 comes out.

So we play this ‘Heavy Rain’ together and take turns and help each other out. No idea how close I am to finding the killer, but all I know is I need to give myself a good half hour before bed of reading something happy or shopping for shoes on the internet before I close my eyes, because my imagination just starts running wild.  Doors Locked? What was that noise? Someone outside? Where’s our fake BB pistol gun? I guess it helped last night, only I woke up at 2 am with the laptop 3 inches from my face. Not comfortable. But I did dream about shopping that night….so I guess it did help.

Well, I’m all wrapped in this game until it’s over. Maybe then I’ll switch to a book and keep it all balanced out. Perhaps it’ll be a SCHOOL BOOK!

May your SPIRIT live on.

Well, I sure have not written for awhile. My last post was awhile ago.  I need to get on this again. Show some focus! As for being able to get up early and exercise before I head to work. That’s not exactly working out for me. 5 am is just a no-can-do. Actually…it’s a not-want-to. I KNOW..after all that talk about loving the early morning and high expectations. It’s not that I’ve given up on it…it’s just that I’ve decided that I like to sleep. I knew this already of course, but after getting up around 5 am a couple of times without the productivity I had hoped for, I’ve decided I might as well stay in bed. I HAVE been pondering which hour of my day that I can devote to jumping up and down and throwing some uppercuts and squatting my a** off though. I’m down to my lunch hour…but the only shower at the Tribune is in the boys bathroom. Don’t ask me why they have a shower in the first place, and really don’t ask me why it’s in the boys restroom. I’ve asked myself this very thing. Decided not to make a big deal about it. So my lunch hour is out of the question. My second option is right when i get home. Because after dinner is no good..I suppose 9 o clock at night is the second perfect time to do this. Anyway…just wanted to let you know it’s still a work in progress. Although it shouldn’t be! Just freakin do it.

In other news…the Dodge Spirit died. After 20 years of running like a well oiled machine…well…make that 15. The holes in every single thing that holds any type of liquid got larger, and it wasn’t just the car. No…it was me as well. It needed like a bottle of oil a week I swear…and I let it go a little too long without an oil change. Transmission Oil leaked…I filled the coolant every OTHER week. It just QUIT on me two years ago in the middle of an intersection on our way to my son’s birthday party…spark plugs were bad. The radio quit working…so I just know it did have its issues, but sometimes I can’t help but think….I murdered my car, and let it die and slow oilless death. But I pulled it together… cleaned it out and said goodbye to it, and left it for scrap at a local body shop, so at least I know it’s parts will go to good use.

With the help of my boyfriend’s parents who live in Waverly and his sister, Kris, who gave us a heads up on a car that was listed on the State Patrol Bulletin Board, we found a car! In all of my years…of driving my first car…

A two-toned 1988 Lincoln Continental, 

A beat up old Ford Truck,

A cute Ford Escort a friend totaled 

and a 1990 Dodge Spirit I drove for 5 years…

I finally have a car that was born in the 2000’s.  

Yay. And thank you to all who helped. 🙂 It’s funny that I find it amazing I no longer have to ROLL down my windows, or open each door to unlock it individually. I don’t need to put headphones in on my drive, or let my car warm up for 30 minutes just to defrost the windshield. Quite possibly in the summer I won’t find myself wanting to bring a change of clothes after a two hour drive in 90 degree weather. I don’t need to manually click my blinker into place when I want to turn, and I will never let my battery run out again because of leaving my headlights on. I can actually hear Tatum in the backseat when he says something to me, and I can actually hear myself think! On long trips I no longer look down only to find myself going 87. Cruise control is great. And don’t get me wrong, these things aren’t NEW to me. At one time, my radio, blinker, air conditioning, locks, cruise, and oooh yeah, gas tank opened by itself and all worked perfectly. I just kind of dealt with it, and let it last as long as it could. And to my dodge spirit. You were a great little car, and drove a wonderful little life carrying some pretty great ones. May your spirit LIVE ON!

I’m just super thankful every time I get in my car, and turn it on and feel a comforting hum, back out of my parking spot, and thank God for all the great things in life. Like nice cars and good people.

So, that’s my car story. I just really can’t feel complete about it until I go on a long trip with someone in the passengers seat though. Which will be happening this next weekend. My son’s birthday is next Sunday, in 5 days. Almost four years ago, he was actually due…5 days ago. So I was quite ready for him to come out, and ever since that day, each one has been filled with more smiles and love than I could ever imagine. So I’m quite excited for Saturday which is when the birthday party will be held. Then the weekend after that, I’ll be heading to Hastings to catch up with some friends I have not seen for a few months. I miss them terribly and need a taste of comfort. And Winestyles…and some bluegrass country at The Listening Room. Then….the weekend after that…Nate and I are celebrating our one year anniversary. By indulging in some miniature golf and beers at as many bars as we can physically make it to…starting at noon..on a Saturday. So romantic right? We have some other plans…but it’s how our relationship came to start….and it’s all for a good cause. So I’ll sacrifice a Saturday to do this…I guess. Then there’s a bachelor party after that, and that weekend, I think I would just like to borrow an xbox and play a certain game (that is pretty nerdy…so I’m not going to say..but it does look like this) and sit on my couch all weekend and play the whole thing.

Yup…sounds like a good time. And of course get some hardcore workouts in.

After the month of February, things might slow down a little for us, but probably not. I kind of like it fast paced, as long as I have time to smell the roses and take a few moments like this. As for this weather. What the H!? It is Nebraska and don’t we all love a good “psyche!!!!”. . . not. It’s nice, it’s cold, I go jogging, I slip walking out the door. I go 65 on the highway, I go 35 mph. At least we are always a little surprised here when we wake up. Always makes for good office talk. And it’s kind of nice to leave a little early to ‘beat the weather’. I really don’t like driving with my face two inches from my steering wheel…but it is what it is. And after this we get to look forward to thunderstorms, insane winds, and possible funnel clouds. Fun.

I could keep writing forever, but there is my update for now.

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My See you later…

A year ago last month I left Omaha, a town I lived in for about two years, to come and temporarily stay in my hometown of Hastings, Nebraska. It was my last resort, an option I did not want to consider, but one I accepted after exploring all of my other non-options. Moving to Hastings far outweighed the stress, anxiety, fear, and drama that waited for me if I chose to stay in my apartment.  I packed all my things in one day with the help of my parents and left with my son for Hastings.

Growing up in this small town I had dreams of leaving it behind. “There is NOTHING to do here!.” I would say. When you are 17 years old I’m not quite sure what I meant as nothing…I’m also sure as a 17 year old there is not much to do anywhere  besides hang out at friends’ houses or cruise along the main street in search of a party or gathering. My 17 year old self would have gasped at future me saying this…”Hastings has SO much to offer and is a beautiful small town that will be missed very much.” It has been an absolutely perfect place to spend this past year.

I’m standing on the verge of making a big move. I’m excited very much for the next steps in my life and ready for the chaos of it all but it’s bittersweet. When I look at life I see beauty and good and when I look out the window of the store I currently work at I know I’m going to miss seeing what’s playing on the marquee of the movie theatre across the street. I’m going to miss seeing Jennica and Susie at the Blue Moon almost everyday. To the customers that frequent the coffee shop it’s such a chill place to go. I wonder if we all feel as if it’s ‘ours’ the same way patrons of a bar feel as if that bar is ‘theirs’.

When I moved here I was offered the opportunity of managing the store ‘climate’. I’ve loved loved loved every second, and found passion in something I’ve longed for. While managing the day to day duties and hiring the kids that work here, whom I love, I’ve taken a huge part in the creativity of the store. Created the logo and every advertisement that goes out to press, banners, flyers, the Facebook page and website, in-store design including the back wall artwork, and I’ve taken sooo many photos for creative backdrops. While loving every second of that, I’ve learned so much from Jason Schreiner, the owner of Climate, who is probably one of the smartest men on earth. Ask him anything…he has infinite knowledge. Every second I’ve spent at Climate has been awesome and I’m so grateful for the opportunity and feel very blessed to have gotten to know all of you. Jason, Alex, Karla, Austin, Jena…oh Jena…:), and especially you Daisy. We’ve spent almost everyday together just hanging out and taking care of business. Can’t pretend that workplaces don’t have their own drama and spending so much time together can sometimes cause problems to arise, but seriously EVERYDAY is such a pleasure and everyday for the past year I’ve looked forward to seeing everyone of you. Whether you work here still or not. I hope it continues in such a manner. And every time I come “home” to visit I am stopping in to say hi. Maybe just hang out for an hour…haha….and drink coffee. But I’m on to the next steps in life and I’m confident in my choice and I’m confident in all of you. You’ll all be wonderful. Don’t lose touch. I’ll miss ALL OF YOU.

When I walk down 2nd street in the downtown of Hastings I see so many good things going on. Reconstruction of old buildings, and the upper level of many buildings have been turned into condos, apartments, or studios. There’s a great bakery, a cute little bookstore, a tattoo studio, the movie theatre, a design and advertising firm, a clothing store, coffee shop, antique stores, and just so many nice smiling people walking by as well. And it’s not just the downtown that is a great place to be, but it’s the town..the whole city that gets involved with different events. Hastings is just a cute, little, great place to be.

It’s not just the atmosphere of Hastings that I’ll miss, but it’s my friends that I’ve reconnected with and the friends I’ve made while being here. I really don’t know what I’m going to do without you. This last summer was one of the best ever, as we so set out affirming that it would be. I will make frequent calls and I’ll be back OFTEN. I say that now and I intend to follow through.  Some of you may have not even known that I’m moving.  I’m not really fond of saying goodbye so I’m sorry, but I’ll for sure see you again!!! So it’s ok and it’s going to be like…I’m not even gone! I’m just a little further away!

So to my friends….I love you and we will have more memories for the future. I’ll miss you all immensely and please make sure you have absolutely no fun without me. 🙂

To my coworkers…You’ve all made this past year one of my best. I know climate will be great. Just keep smiling and doing what you all do best. I’ll miss you SO much.

To my family…Would not be here if it wasn’t for you. The amount of love and appreciation is overflowing. And I’m so grateful to have two of the most wonderful parents I could ask for. I never asked for em, but God just knew you were perfect. I love you so much and I will probably end up calling A LOT. So prepare yourself. 🙂

To the future…Words can’t really express the butterflies I’ve felt this past week…or the butterflies I’ve felt the past year…good ones…nervous ones…excited ones…all of them have led up to the next few days.  Seriously…words can’t express what I’m jumping into. 🙂 All I know is I’m excited to build my life with you. So ready yourself for some super great days. And yes…I’ll pick up McDonald’s on our way in. Then it’s healthy cooking and workin out on the bow-flex!! 🙂 I know the butterflies will never stop…they will be there in all different kinds of situations and I’m looking forward to it. I love you.

OK. That’s my goodbye to Hastings. What has been my home for about 19 years of my life will no longer be. We’ll see you again though! Farewell and you’ll be missed.

Looking for a kid website??

This website is absolutely amazing to me. I keep finding new things to do, from learning my numbers in Greek and French, to all kind of puzzles for your kids brain development. Learning shapes, colors, numbers, and letters. . It’s awesome and Tatum and I have had lots of fun on this site. From toddler to adult Poisson Rouge is great for computer time with the kiddos.